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When i opened wordpress tonight..the first thing that fell into my eye was the write button. It somehow seems new because i havent blogged in exactly 78690345000 days , well not the exact number but i havent blogged in like forever! days spent not blogging  are days of pain and disappointment in myself..and if i cant write am miserable so i have been miserable since my last blog post!

 

write..it felt like someone was watching me and new i deeply inside need to write. I don’t have to know how, i don’t have to know what, since being in control of that is overrated. Neither am i going to beat myself over why i haven’t blogged in a long time, and how i feel like i have let down my readers. I cant blame myself for that, since my blessing in disguise came as “MEDICAL SCHOOL” if you know what i mean.

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The now is what i have, and let me use it. My one week Christmas break officially starts today! and since i not only hate Christmas but also have no plans for the entire season , other than stay in bed, ignore my face and hair  then eat..and get fat!

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My Christmas present is going to be spamming wordpress with my blogging..until exams do us apart..

I have missed every single thing about wordpress..about blogging, about amazing people and what they have to say through their writing!

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!!

 

 

I AM COMPLETE.

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I am complete, when he comes he will be an extension of who I am, as a whole, as someone who already has a defined identity as someone who is enough for living, for being..

I am complete now, and when he comes we will dissolve as two wholes to make something deeper, but am whole, not just a piece cut on something greater, not just a fragment that won’t make sense unadded to ,

I am complete and when he comes he will find me defined , and knowing who  I am, without him, without anyone but the absolute me that is, the absolute me that lives, a life already full

I am complete that when he comes he will find me with no doubts, of whether I like black or blue so that he can be the one to tell me

I am complete, and when he comes he will find me ready not to hide the nakedness of my soul, my known flaws, and mistakes of the past , he will find me living with them as another thing that makes the whole of my completeness

I am complete, with the self, that loves its self, that forgives itself, that is kind to its self…as if towards someone really important and deserving

I am complete, and joy he will find me with, joy he will find me knowing , so that I am ready to give and with open arms to receive, and that the joy he will bring he will find my heart knowing

And in my completeness and his we will extend. To oneness and form a rock…

The Gallery

fofo103 years ago i stumbled upon an art gallery somewhere in the neighborhood looked at all the painting there and was i awe of how creative the human mind can be, it was too much beauty in one place it was unbelievable i spent hours discussing with an artist i found there about the paintings and if he could teach me and he surprisingly accepted..fofo11

I love arts,  loved arts since i was a child loved the idea of making magic out of nothing.  i spent a few weeks at the studio learning how to mix colors, sketch paint, and admiring  the works of others.

MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT ABSTRACT

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When i gave it a chance it came slowly, and i realized it was in me. like a virtual gallery that was only waiting to be painted out . it made me feel happy but also left me with a sense of longing since i know i was never going to get a chance to do more of it

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the few weeks went by fast and i went to medical school. am paving my way towards the opposite of a part of me that loves art, and make me feel like its my first love..arts, music poetry anything ..

i hold on to writing so that my life won’t be left tasteless, without a touch of arts, and some other thing that connects me to the beauty of arts in the meantime..hoping that one day the doctor life am going to lead is going to leave me time for the other things i love

Enjoying Lazy days..

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I have been on a break for a week now, having a week without assignments, appointments and responsibilities for the first time in a long long time. and i wanted to get the most of it enjoying the stillness of having nothing on my hands, nothing to look forward to, not even socializing. or worrying about how messy my hair gets..craving cake eating fries and  not get depressed about how big my belly gets..

 

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The town has been feeling like a freaking oven !! making all  my enjoying being by myself almost impossible .Because instead of enjoying long hours of sleep i would be restless trying to find what could be the coolest part of the house. Wearing so little to nothing , laying on the floor opening windows and wishing i was in another part of the country

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But then today felt like a celebration because, God finally answered my silent prayers. it rained, i’ve never been desperate for rain before. The weather is not as  cold as i wish it was still, but the wind smells clean  and the earth feels different. and now it feels like a the right place to enjoy doing nothing at least until Monday

i hope everyone is having a lovely or rather acceptable weather to encourage productivity , bring inspiration or help you enjoy doing nothing like myself..

 

LOVE XX

THE BLOGGING IS ON AGAIN!!

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HEY before i say anything for y’all to understand how serious this is i have spent 4 and 17 hours without opening my laptop. and that’s a first.!!! and i haven’t felt relieved by that not even one second but the thing is i was dead tired, chronically, excruciatingly tired by two or three things!

As  most of  who must have read my previous posts know i moved to a new city to do my clinicals at a Hospital. The first two months i tried a bit to share what my first experiences with patients , diseases and death were like. Then at some point everything got so overwhelming and tiresome. Too many assignments, reasearch, and patients to follow-up day by day.

So even when i had time i would eat ,sleep and watch grey’s anatomy! i couldn’t bring myself to write and i missed it terribly but i didn’t have much choice. despite that i always had reminders that i had loyal followers waiting, i still was getting messages about new comments followers and awards nominations. and now am more than glad to get up on my lazy ass and do my thing blogging is on again!!

 

STAY TUNED AND STAY AMAZING!

“Little Donald Trump the cutie”

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Believe it or not this cute innocent little boy is young Donald Trump, i do not like Donald Trump not one tiny bit of me likes him or thinks he is a good man.

But when i found these i was reassured ,that at least he was once a cute little boy! which makes me wonder how he grew into this ugly and irrational American running for president headed out to ruin America which i probably shouldn’t care about since am not an American citizen!

IS THIS YOUNG MAN UGLY ? NO SIR!

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Instead he looks like that guy every girl would want , and the uniform completes the last piece of his attractiveness. ladies and gentlemen meet hot young Trump!

 

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He is the nice looking man second right first row..

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Everything inside of me wants to prove that he couldn’t have been cute at one point in life but despite my prejudice and the fact that i don’t like him, i was glad to find these portraits.

 

BUT THIS , THIS MY DEAR, IS AN EXTREMELY UGLY  AND EVIL LOOKING MAN RUNNING FOR PRESIDENT!

Donald Trump Endorses GOP Candidate Mitt Romney In Las Vegas
LAS VEGAS, NV – FEBRUARY 02: Donald Trump speaks to members of the media before endorsing Republican presidential candidate, former Massachusetts Gov. Mitt Romney at the Trump International Hotel & Tower Las Vegas February 2, 2012 in Las Vegas, Nevada. Romney came in first in the Florida primary on January 31 and is looking ahead to Nevada’s caucus on February 4. (Photo by Ethan Miller/Getty Images)