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Today is the third day of my clinicals which i was blessed to start in gynecology and obstetrics. which is a special department because you all know after God creates he sends in that department before any other in few words we are the bosses you know ?
The delivery room is among the busiest rooms in the hospital. am working in the delivery room this week. There is no sitting down for a minute, no time to breath, no lunch break, no nothing. Every 5 mins more than one woman is giving birth sometimes 10 all at once, along with a long list of those waiting for a c-section. i spend the day working with midwives, nurses and a doctor also nursing students and midwifery students. They are the most hardworking and patient people.
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The magic inside! the first time i listened to a fetal heart beat through a fetoscope i was in PCL2 and so i was like wow, i cant believe it! I would have stuck my ear to women bellies all day! i loved it
The first sight at an ultrasound is surprising and thrilling. Especially if a woman is a few weeks pregnant and not even showing. yet a tiny fetus lies peacefully inside thriving calmly yet vigorously. Tiny feet and hands and a little heart that beats so fast!Yet all of that still feels like an unclear proof that a life is in there.You almost don’t believe its a life.
The pain, the fear, the pushing or c section doesn’t hold any poetry or magic When the baby is finally out it feels there is the dream, the magic, the poetry, the everything you can imagine and more! When the baby cries, and is moving, eager to suck, alive and breathing, opening little eyes. There you see a miracle of how much of an artist , programmer, creator, and worker God really is!
How i feel about it ? Mixed feelings, brought about by the questioning of things that happen in the delivery room. am eager to learn every morning but when i get home at night i feel a kind of frustration. I question myself how do i speak and help women who are terrified? in pain? uncertain of the next few minutes of their lives ?What are the right eyes to look at them with? how do i learn and where do i start from?
The side effects Right now am not still looking forward to getting pregnant as i did before. and i mean not even a little bit. but am not trying to scare anyone. I’ve heard what people go through before, but now its different I’ve seen several and different types of deliveries none of them looks like something to want, but babies are so worth it, now what a terrible combination!
how do you feel about childbirth and does it scare you ? how did you feel right after having your baby ?
Love and blessings xx